Yeah...so this is the last post for this blog...kinda been a sad couple of days for me...but, somehow life goes on I guess.

Goodbye and thanks for reading my shit for the past year or so.

Lance

Platinum

you can't escape what makes you tragic you know
vicious 'cause you want to be
leaving time possessed to please you
what might have been
was never the way you envisioned things
so difficult to stop pretending
what's this to you anyway

turn down the voluptuous
keeping close to me again
hold back your virtues
you're fearless in motion

you found your way
so why keep asking me
nothing common suits you
you live again in solitary
look away for now
beautiful alone now
who decides to settle down
maybe nobody really cares
what's this to you anyway

something dirty's got you dear
makes me want to be with you
something painful's with you dear
makes me want to be with you

you're better off saying nothing
wish for a happy ending
you're better off saying nothing
repent so all's forgiven

Fade To Black


Life it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free

Things are not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this can’t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he’s gone

No one but me can save myself, but it’s too late
Now I can’t think, think why I should even try

Yesterday seems as though it never existed
Death greets me warm, now I will just say good-bye

So everyone made it to my house safe yesterday...Logan got here first and we had a couple of hours to hang out before the girls got here...so I introduced him to UFC...at first he kinda thought it was like ECW or something until the blood started flowing...lol...I think he kinda got a kick out of it, said he never watched it. The girls rolled in about 12:30 or so and we had a few beers then Dave and Baird showed up and hung out with us for a while..was cool...and Dave was in rare form...lol...the yankees got a kick out of his accent...lol.

So they left out today and me and Colleen went to see Def Leppard and Brian Adams...Def Lep. were great...played most of the hits...lasted about and hour and a half or so...nothing new really...couple of covers and thats about it....called tina so she could hear hysteria but it was so loud i dont think she could make it out...lol. This is the first time I have seen Brian Adams and I was impressed...he sounds great live and you dont really realize just how many hits that guy has until about an hour in to the set and you are thinking..damn there are still a couple of big hits left in the bag still to play...lol...overall great show...Def Lep. have slowed down a lot since the last time I saw them...but then again I guess I have to...we had a great time and it was just good to spend some time together and hang out for a change.

Tomorrow we are going to Bristol to catch a movie and then back over to the Breaks tomorrow night to hang out...I took her there last year with Karen but we are going at night and that place is a different world at night...hope it's not raining...either way it should be cool...it's one of my favorite places in the world.


That's it for now...and here's a little Def Lep:
Promises

Last night I was blown away
I said a million things I’d never say
I was knocked right down, it got to me
Gonna get me some of your chemistry

You want me to promise you
That everything is true

I won’t make promises that I can’t keep
I won’t make promises that I don’t mean
I’ll even mean the things I tell you in my sleep, yeah
I won’t make promises babe, that I can’t keep

Oh my my, I lost control
I told you everything, I said it all
You came right out and said to me
Gonna get me some of your honesty

You want me to promise you
That everything is true

I won’t make promises that I can’t keep
I won’t make promises that I don’t mean
I’ll even mean the things I tell you in my sleep, yeah
I won’t make promises babe, that I can’t keep

You want me to promise you
That everything is true

I won’t make promises that I can’t keep
I won’t make promises that I don’t mean
I’ll even mean the things I whisper in my sleep
Oh, let me tell you
I won’t say a single word darling, that you can’t believe
You gotta believe me

I won’t make promises that I can’t keep
Oh baby believe me now
I won’t make promises that I don’t mean
Oh why won’t you believe me now
I’ll even mean the things I whisper in my sleep, yeah
I won’t make promises that I can’t keep baby, you gotta believe me

Randomness part 39:

Mindbinge: so who was the guy you were talking about
Mindbinge: works for a big band or whatever...production manager
Zeta Vande: huh?
Zeta Vande: oh
Zeta Vande: works for Nickelback
Mindbinge: did he have a mullet?
Zeta Vande: no, lmao
Mindbinge: damn

I have decided when Tina comes to visit to take her to football games and teach her how to be a man...lmfao. She must also learn how to properly scratch her balls in public and adjust the package so as not to attract maximum attention when in public...unless playing baseball...in which case it is ok to just grab the boys and move the house at will.

Work has been a bitch this week...unreal..glad it's almost over.

Colleen, Janelle, and Logan will be here Sat night...should be a good time, have a few things planned and I'm off until Wed :)

more later...

Interview went ok...kinda draining...lot of brainpower wasted on that one.

anyway..out for the day.

gone.

day off...



Have that interview tomorrow...going to knock that out and finish up on that job thing...hope it goes well and I move on up to management...might end up being a good thing...i'll be stuck there for 6 months then start trying to move on up the ladder again...pretty much every 6 months you can move up if you have your shit together.

Also working on a special project at work...they have been doing a lot of things with me over the past month, wasn't really sure why until now...they only hand pick a few people for certain things and they seem to pick me a lot for this stuff...so guess that is good? This one is a pretty big one, can't really say anything about it but it's straight from the top of the ladder...which is cool.

Going to the bank(s), then to look at a house I might buy...then probably over to my parents for a few, then to the movies, then hopefully meet up with Chris and some friends and go bowling or soemthing...if not I'll get up with Dave and Baird and do soemthing...or if not I can just hang out at the house and drink a few beers and work on some music shit that's in my head I haven't had time to work on...got the lyric shit (see below) done for the most part, will still need some work though - just need to tab out the music before I forget...

Just a work in progress...

Always right you're never wrong
in your head rings silence
if you had an original thought
it would die of loneliness

emptyness is all around you
how does it feel to be like me
do you wish you could complain
would it make your life complete

don't blame me
for what you suffer
don't blame me
for what you have done
don't blame me
for things you tell me
don't blame me
because I no longer feel

tattoo yourself to cover scars
a train wreck emotional
feeling you can't take the pain
does it really help to hide them

inside you can't hide from me
telling lies controls you
lost in what you have become
can you hear me now

don't blame me
for what you suffer
don't blame me
for what you have done
don't blame me
for things you tell me
don't blame me
because I no longer feel

do you hear me now

one more day...lol

some cool stuff on the way if everything goes as planned...more later.


Could Colleen be moving here and going to Va Tech? Will Miss Tina come to visit this fall? All this and more in a future Blog...lol.

Laterz!~